February 11, 2026
God will provide everything we need. The goal is that I'm always going to have enough to give back. There's a big difference between what we think we need and what we actually need to survive. God doesn't provide to guarantee our comfort or luxury. God provides what we need to do his will and works in our lives each day.
I've been told to pay off all my debts before I give or share money and I don't agree. We're never going to feel like we are in the perfect place to be generous or to take on a challenge. God isn't asking us to wait until we think we're set up enough to go out and do as he has asked us.
I'm struggling with this right now. I feel like my family and I desperately need tons of money to get everything that I think we need. I feel like there's no catching up! Yet, we're making do, making ends meet and moving forward with each passing day.
February 10, 2026
I don't know that I'm ever going to go through suffering akin to today's persecuted Christians or the first century Christians, but I definitely understand anxiety, stress, confusion, sadness and hopelessness. Paul's words are an encouragement to me today. My fears and shortcomings aren't too much for God. He can work out all things for His glory and my good. It's my job to endure, not lose hope and live each day to It's fullest potential, as the gift that it is.
I've got squares of my brownies packed up in Valentine's Day bags ready to offer the customers whose orders I take today!
February 9, 2026
It's been over a month snce I last cared to update this website at all. I've been stressed and anxious and questioning what I should be doing. I've actually been out working and running errands more than when I had a normal job! Why, God? How? What is next?
Today is a reminder not to dwell on being anxious. When I feel that way, it's a reminder to stop, pray and give that weight to God. My biggest worry right now is finances and what my life will look like in the future. I want everything done 100% right now. Crystal clear clarity.
Ridiculous, right? I know it's not realistic, a life devoid of problems and challenges. All I can do today is take the next step. I want to start giving my instacart customers the option of having a baked good of the week bag dropped off with their order. I've got a much further reach with instacart than just Halls farmers market.
I still feel totally overwhelmed. Today: bathrooms cleaning, instacart for 100-200, cost out a pumpkin cake roll, Hobby Lobby errand and bake a birthday cake for an order. Let's also not forget the dark cloud of financial precariousness hanging over my head day and night. I understand not being anxious and giving it to God, but how do I actually let go and give Him these unrealistic and bloated to do lists and, yes, self inflicted financial wounds?
